just a spill of stuff

So what a hell of a Halloween I had!... there was a party at benedictine university which i arrived too damn late for! Then there was an after party that was really not a party at all... then on the way home my car ran out of gas! Got gas, was about to pull up to my school when guess what... I got pulled over! Luckily I did not get a ticket and did not get into any trouble. I made it back safely to school and went to my room... I guess I am writing this because I am going through a little withdrawal! I miss wolfman! (He knows who he is)....

I am so lonely in the romantic field... I am trying to ignore it but hey lets be honest who the hell can ignore a natural feeling, a natural want and desire to have another to relate to, to have when the sun disappears into the night and to just be surely and absolutely reassured that they too love you... When you find me that person you have found the end of the rainbow! I am relapsing to my old self... I want to date so bad that hell the first offer I get I might just say yeah just to fulfill that want to be wanted...

I don't know like seriously I want just this one person right now and forever but seems like that ship has sailed and he does not want me in the same respect so what am I to do? It is like everyone that comes along I am not satisfied with because they don't amount to what he did for me, how even without his presence I was sure he was thinking of me... love.... man does it have its ways of fucking with the mind and heart.... anyway....

my little cousin Anthony turns 21 on Sunday November 8th and so we are going to party!!! lol School is coming along just fine and I look to graduation in May!