Do I make you happy...

He looked me straight in my eyes, held my hand and asked me "do I make you happy" and I was blown away! I was overwhelmed to have someone who actually cared enough to ask me if they made me happy! So I came up with this piece to express my feelings after I woke up this morning...

Do I make you happy, am I everything you ever wanted
see he could tell that I was in love with him
over and over again he caught me staring, caught my eyes glaring
felt my pulse beat faster each time we shared the presence of one another
He told me that he didnt want sex unless I wanted him and that I should know that he wanted sex with no one other
than me, but see it was a messege of more than just a sexual desire
he asked me my dreams, what made my heart beat, what in life did I aspire
to be hmpf....

I never had anyone tell me that they wanted me to experience something that I would be proud of, something I would remember, something that would instantly make me smile the next morning, until he said it to me while looking deep into my eyes...

see love and lust, used to play hardball with my mind three strikes and my heart was eventually out but with him, I'm like a cat with nine lives
I'm like a track and field star my heart paces faster with each stride
with each soft kiss, with each joyful wish, I love him.

Growing and going, going and growing, listening and responding, responding and listening
feeling and feelingless but never feeling less
smiling and crying, crying and laughing
agreeing and disagreeing learning to agree to disagree
I respect you and you respect me caring enough to ask
"do I make you happy"

Feeling Good!

What a week last week! The 4th annual spring fashion show was great! I am so happy it turned out very nice! Ok so on to today. Today my mind began racing with all these memories and thoughts about past lovers, deceased family members and just all the events that are most memorable to me from my younger days of life. I was almost overwhelmed, but in a good way. I am feeling alive, fun and free. I am in love with someone who reminds me everyday that my self appreciation and love are what comes first and in realizing that, I realize I dont necisarilly need to be loved physically or mentally by anyone other than myself and God. I am looking forward to my visit to ATL with my brother!!! Whooo! So much to do so much to catch up on. I really hate that I will be leaving many of my friends behind in Chicago but I mean sometimes you just have to do what needs to be done. I really feel like I am so happy with life. I used to think that the acceptance of those who I called a friend was what made me happy but it is not. I am happy with just being me! I don't need or aquire "clicks" or friendships for the comfort of being alone or for show. I have friends that I know that I can talk to and be around without having to hide or bottle any of my personality or who I am. I love the fact that I am a person who does not need or require the action of seeking faults in others in order to comfort my own instabilities. I feel good! I just want to encourage everyone to think about the choices we make everyday. Stop doiong what you think others may see as good or acceptable, stop doing what you believe others expect, start living for you! Keep it respectable and fun! God will handle the rest!

yeh uoy ereht (yes I know what it looks like lol)

OK, so I know it has been sometime since I wrote in my blog. Thanks AJ for getting me back on track. I had to reset my password but it's all done now and so I should be on here for the most part all the time lol. Where do I start. Well hmm, you know when you find out that you are growing in you can not control it because God has something instore for your life, that's where I am right now. I am so overwhelmed with so many things and yet I can't complain because I know God is moving through my life for the betterment of my life. I have fallen in love with myself again (smile) and I have fallen in love with someone as well. I have a fashion show coming up April 15ht and boy am I drained from all the preparing, but its going well! (Thanks Shamare, Deanna, Mike, Pam, Becca, Stacey and both Imani's as well as Gugu) Where do I go from that hmmm.... Well big plans for the summer, I will be moving to ATL with my brother (just for the summer). My book has officially been approved and is hitting Borders and other stores soon so go cop that! (Memories Of Mine A Poetic Journey by Isaac Ricks also found at www.lulu.com). I recently got a new tatoo in japanese that means honor right below the one that means achievement. I am kinda busy right now doing homework but I took a quick break to update everyone. Until next time~