that four letter word has crept back in my life... im addicted to the need, the want, the hope of potential love....

What do I do? I am so overwhelmed with someone right now.... I am willing to change not myself for them but my decision making... This person does not think that trust will fall through because of my decision making and I am just trying to figure out what it is exactly that I have "decided" that is so wrong that they feel as if they can not trust me? I am falling in love with myself again and in doing so I have allowed myself to open up for the possibility to love another person in the emotional, spiritual, and mental realm of life... It's been two days since I acquired this feeling and I can not find ease to sleep because I am afraid of learning how to be a friend without getting hurt... Damn it I want to be held, loved, kissed, hugged, and I want to be that hope of sincere happiness for this person because before I knew it they were providing me with advise, love, respect, and most importantly honesty! ...... So what do I do I ask myself.... Because I have been slain by an emotion I thought no longer existed in ME......