Today was one heck of a day for me. I was for some reason extremely tired, thoughts about life and what I was going through kept my mind spinning out of control and all I want is some order. It took for me to get down right embarrassed in front my friends for me to open up and ask for input, advise, guidance and support. I am for the first time lost for words. I go through everyday feeling sad and bad for myself. I guess I have taken my life for granted, I have misconstrued what my purpose is and how much mercy I have been granted by God. I have found myself living, not for me, but for others and what they expect, and in doing so, I don't even know what Me, wants of Me anymore. I have yerned so long to be accepted, to be wanted, to have people want my presence and I have forgotten that the only thing that really matters and what God wants of me. I just have so much to pray about......